Everything Is So Distant Including This Dream
Does she know something she's not supposed to?
I'm trying to figure out why she said "pay for whatever hole tonight"
Whatever it's not like I'm into you too, you share no resemblance to a dude.
And last night I dreamt of you again, living happily in a forest
It's always the last night and I'm tired of coming up short
Every passing day, it's on replay. I keep relieving the memory of you walking away
Today is the day I try to stop you. This time I'll convince you to stay.
In reality
I'm trying to convince myself, I lack the courage and I know you're to set in your ways to sway.
The worst thing about a dream is that it shows us something that can never be
You were Sitting on that Rock waiting, legs crossed and skin glossed.
the sun looks modest at best, tress shading but you still glow.
you know in this moment you're the hottest, you ran into my arms and as we kissed, my arms became your lift and for a second my chest felt serene, you filled that gaping abyss.
The sky shifts and I'm scared, the hole in my chest begins seeping with regret
People questioning, your essence begins tormenting
Happiness In my grasp, it's escaping,
It hurts, I want it to end, I've been addicted to the older years spent.
It feels like I'm learning how to breathe as the night time sky and stars cleave a hole through me,
It's taunting with its beauty it's reminding me of what we can never be.
I awake drenched in sweat, once again I'm in another nightmare where we no longer exist
You and I just vanished and I'm supposed to forget it like we weren't a thing?
Reality is painful and it likes to persist, this is worse than a nightmare it's torment and agony that coexist.
It won't let up and I keep staring at the gun like what do you insist?
I got my tongue in the sharks mouth and we're one bang away from having our final kiss
I think it's pretty obvious but I want to know
In the emptiness of your bed, do you too reminisce
I'm still trying to sip but liquor store clerk might block me
Aiming to be someone you wanted, it seems that I always missed
I'm falling at the liquor store, holding on to the doors shouting just let me in.
One more bottle for the road and another shot for the ditch.
Whichever one I find myself laying on, I knew it was done when you lowered what we had by offering us friendship.
